Nanay’s Journal to Her Baby
April 17th, 2006 by jcbonganay
December 21, 2005
It was our wedding Day, I woke up at 3:30am and i am very excited to wear my dream wedding Gown and see My friends and family waiting near the altar with My dear Jay. But early in the morning i called my sister and told her "Parang Magkakaroon ako!" and She responded that the honeymoon will be resched..Ha? no it cant be..I was suppose to have my monthly period at this date, but since Jay and i are very much inlove, i couldnt do anything but to say yes even though i am experiencing menstrual cramps.
For two weeks, i’ve been waitng for my monthly bisita, but it didnt came. It was not so normal for me to miss it even for 5 weeks now, so on,
January 14, 2006
It is one Saturday morning and I still can’t believe it. I suspected that our dream was finally coming true so I took a pregnancy test. I followed the procedure then closed my eyes while I waited for the results. Whew! it was weird, i put the urine sample on the wrong place so My husband needs to go to the drug store for another one. Then before i did it again, I prayed three Hail Marys that I would accept God’s will graciously. After the last prayer I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the test… there it was! it was positive. There is a little one growing inside me!
Jay was in the bedroom so I went in there and asked him to close his eyes and hold out his hands to receive a greatest gift I wanted to give him. He did so and I then placed his hands on my stomach and told him to open his eyes. With a puzzled look he said, "What?" I said, "Guess!" His eyes grew wide and with astonishment he exclaimed, "You’re pregnant?! Are you sure?" I convinced him that it was true and we just hugged each other and cried. There are no words to describe our joy and gratitude to God for answering our prayers. I’m still in shock…but I will never forget the moment I learned of the existence of my little one. Blessed be God!
January 15, 2006
My dear little one, I am still walking around in a daze. I cannot believe that you are in me! During Tatay and Nanays preparation,we are dreaming and praying of having you right away. How I thank God for your existence! It seems almost too good to be true but it IS true. I have been feeling very tired but that is normal since my body is working extra hard to help you grow. I pray God keeps you safe, my little one.
January 16, 2006
My dear little one, we are on our way to Dra. Cruz for our 1st ever check up and their it was she confirmed it and asked me to see you two weeks from now. Thank you, my dear Lord and Lady!
January 23, 2006
My dear little one, today Tatay and I went to Sunday Mass with the family. It was beautiful to kneel there before God knowing that the blessing of new life is in me. I prayed for you and for your health and safety. I worry, my little one, that perhaps God will call you to Him before you are born. I will always love you whether you live 8 weeks in me or 88 years outside of me… but I pray God will allow us to raise you and enjoy your presence for years to come. My heart is always with you, my little one, no matter what happens. Your daddy knows just the right words to comfort me and encourage me to trust God and his goodness.
Janaury 25, 2006
My dear little one, today I called the doctor’s office and made an appointment for Janaury 28 at 11 am. It seems like a long way off but that is his usual amount of time to wait to see you. I am a little nervous. All this is so new to me! There are times when I still cannot believe it.
I have been reading the baby books and keeping track of your growth and development lend by tita Bebe. It is amazing just how small you begin at, little one. You are just about the size of period at the end of this sentence. Then slowly you grow larger and larger. It is a wonderful miracle how God is forming you. Be always united with your Creator, my little one. You shall be a joy and comfort to Him! Amen!
January 28
My dear little one, today is the day! Tatay and I will be seeing you for the first time. It is hard to keep quiet since We saw the sonogram for the very first time and there you were so tiny (only 1/2 inch tall) on the screen. The Doctor said you are just like Manny Pacquio because you keep on jabbing while she was taking a picture of you. I want to shout it from the bed where the doctor asked me to lay down, i want to hug you and kiss you at that time but I must be patient and wait for God’s time.
I have been very tired and a little ill. I haven’t had morning sickness other than a little queasiness. I hope that’s okay! Your Tatay has been taking such good care of me. He has so much love for us, my little one. Wait until you see what a good and holy man he is!
My dear little one,the whole month of February was such a trial, Nanay have been experiencing early morning vomit, back pains and dizziness. Dra. Cruz asked me to stay home and rest. Lola has been very patient and understanding while she takes care of us everyday. One week leave from teaching was all worth it because i know you are safe inside me. I thank tha Lord for all the people who loved us.
Ninong Anto, Ninang Dedeth and the rest of SFC friends gave us such a wonderful pasalubong since Nanay is craving for a carrot cake from ibays in Baguio. I know you enjoyed it so much.
March 1, 2006
My dear little one, today is Ash Wednesday, the first day of Lent. I will work hard at overcoming my faults and building virtue so that I may truly be a woman of God. In doing such, I will be a better wife to your father and a better mother to you. God has granted me the blessing of motherhood but with it comes great responsibility and sacrifice. God has slowly been preparing my heart for this moment and now that the time has come I accept this task of love.
March 17, 2001
My dear little one, today was our third prenatal appointment. I was so nervous and scared still! Your Tatay got permission to leave work early so he could be with me. He was such a comfort to me! When I first arrived the nurse took my blood pressure and she said I have low blood pressure but it was all normal since i am having you inside me. The doctor talked to Tatay and me and then she examined me. The doctor said my uterus agreed with me.
March 24, 2006
My dear little one, I have found great comfort writing to you and getting to know you while you are still growing in me. I had my first experience of feeling your 3 kicks this morning and 4 in the evening. I pray that your little heart is already beating for His love above all else. It is the love of God that has allowed the miracle of your existence. Never stray from that love…life is meaningless without it.
April 8, 2005
My dear little one, today is our fourth prenata checkup. Tatay arrived just in time before the nurse asked me to see Dra. You are already 20 weeks old and been kicking a lot while Dra. Sharon is checking you up. Blessed be God. Thank you, my Lord and lady and all the angels and saints!
April 14, 2006
My dear little one, tody we will be having our Visita Iglesia with your Ninongs, Ninangs, Titos, and Titas and even your Grandmommy Ollie. Tatay and I will pray for your good health and save deliver as you come out This coming August. I know you’ve been hearing our prayer and never commented on our long wholeday journey. Everyone’s touching you and excited to see you… Even though we are both tired i know God will always guide us and protect us.
Last night, however, I was having a rough time. I’ve been experiencing leg cramps twice. I had a second thought of coming today but Our Blessed Lord helped me and brought peace to my heart. Please intercede for me, my dear lady. I need you I love you, my little one.
